Wee morning hours with Jesus

   I'm not gonna lie, these late night/early morning dates with Jesus are becoming pretty special. As much as I would love to be sleeping during this time of the night, I also love being able to spill my thoughts on Jesus in a different way then I can during the distraction of the day light. I'm less anxious to move on and hurry through my time with Him in the middle of the night (especially because there is nothing else I really could be doing). Yes, I'll admit, I do get distracted by Facebook but after about 5 minutes there is nothing to look at because everyone else is sleeping and therefore not posting.
   Tonight has been precious. There have been several things on my mind. This is what it all comes down: "Lord, do I really trust you? I mean REALLY trust you! With every aspect of life. Do I?!" Well, not always. I like being in control. This whole not being able to sleep thing has been realllllllly frustrating, but, do I trust that God knows I need sleep and will allow me to do so? Do I trust Him to be listening when I cry out for mercy in the middle of the night? Do I trust that he knows the desires of me heart? Do I trust that his timing is perfect in every aspect of my life?
   I've been doing a lot of reflecting tonight and honestly it's hard to believe that I've been through so much in my relatively short life. How did I manage to survive? That seems to be the question I keep asking myself. I didn't do it alone, that's for sure! The only reason I survived was because of my Savior! So when I question myself and think "do I really trust you Lord?" I can honestly say, "yes! I do I do I do!" If I didn't, well, for the sake of bluntness, I wouldn't be here anymore. Honestly, I think I would have lost the motivation to live without Jesus. What else is there to live for? Not much.
   So all of that to say, I trust you with my WHOLE life Lord. Please let your will be done in me. Let me clearly reflect you in everything that I do.
   I know this verse is over quoted but I love it even more now then ever.
"Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding. In ALL your ways acknowledge Him and He WILL direct your path." Proverbs 3:5-6
   As the rest of you are sound asleep I will continue to enjoy my time with Jesus and trust that in the morning I will have the energy to serve and worship him.