What if His blessings come through rain drops?

I love Laura Story's newest song called "Blessings." She went through a very heart breaking experience with her husband's health and this song came out of that. It basically is as if she wrote it for me. The lyrics go like this:
We pray for blessings
We pray for peace
Comfort for family, protection while we sleep
We pray for healing, for prosperity
We pray for Your mighty hand to ease our suffering
All the while, You hear each spoken need
Yet love us way too much to give us lesser things

Cause what if Your blessings come through raindrops
What if Your healing comes through tears
What if a thousand sleepless nights
Are what it takes to know You’re near
What if trials of this life are Your mercies in disguise

We pray for wisdom
Your voice to hear
And we cry in anger when we cannot feel You near
We doubt Your goodness, we doubt Your love
As if every promise from Your Word is not enough
All the while, You hear each desperate plea
And long that we'd have faith to believe

Cause what if Your blessings come through raindrops
What if Your healing comes through tears
What if a thousand sleepless nights
Are what it takes to know You’re near
And what if trials of this life are Your mercies in disguise

When friends betray us
When darkness seems to win
We know the pain reminds this heart
That this is not, this is not our home
It's not our home

Cause what if Your blessings come through raindrops
What if Your healing comes through tears
And what if a thousand sleepless nights
Are what it takes to know You’re near
What if my greatest disappointments
Or the aching of this life
Is the revealing of a greater thirst this world can’t satisfy
And what if trials of this life
The rain, the storms, the hardest nights
Are Your mercies in disguise


This is right where my heart is at right now. I love meditating on the words. Yesterday I was asked by someone if I ever felt hopeless, or a lack of passion. One time I do remember wanting to give up on life in general but other then that the answer has been no. I told her that maybe in the situations that I have been dealing with I have felt that each circumstance might be hopeless. but LIFE has not been hopeless or passionless because my hope is in the Lord. She was surprised by that answer. I mean obviously I have had my days where I probably have said life is pointless but all in all I have always known where to keep my hope. Why would I give up on the one thing that gives me a reason to live?! That would be such a waste! I am excited to see where the summer leads me. Healing is coming to a close. I am being given tools to close this chapter of pain, anguish and suffering and it is sooooo freeing and rejuvenating! I know this is not the last trial I will go through but it's ok because "what if His blessings come through rain drops? What if His healing comes through tears?" It makes it worth that pain. 
Father's day was a special day where not only was I able to celebrate with my dad and another "dad" of mine but also because it is a day when we get to celebrate our ABBA. I always love going to church on Father's day. What an appropriate place where we can show our love for our abba Father and remember and appreciate Him! 


signed,
me


Ps...Sissssssster..I miss you but I love reading your blog and seeing how much you are learning and discovering! 

silence

Well friends, With no internet comes no blogs. I have had a lot going on in my head lately and frankly probably would not have been able to put it into words. That will change soon enough hopefully. It seems as if i don't even know what I am thinking as of late. The one thing that never changes is the Word of God is powerful and comforting. I have been trying to be better about reading it lately and failing miserably. BUT when i do sit down and read i am truly blessed. tears have been my friend and satan has been my enemy but all in all life keeps trudging along and my feet keep dragging behind me. I have an interesting encounter on monday which could be life altering. we shall see. As a line from a good song goes "God is great, beer is good and people are crazy." sums it up right there.
signed,
me