Tuesday, November 23, 2010

busy busy busy

I have sucked at this whole blogging thing lately. I think I get overwhelmed in my own thoughts and super busy socially to where I just don't know what to write.
Today I went with my cousin to run errands. We both have worked for the school district for 2 1/2 plus years (her more like 4 1/2 plus) and never opened up a school first credit union account until today. We went in and they were running a special where school employees would get 55 dollars for opening up an account. So needless to say we took the free money and signed up! woot! I was telling Jacki (my cousin) all about how God has truly blessed me in the last few years but especially the last 8 months and REALLY a lot in the last month. I have been able to live in a very tight budget every month for the last 8 months and have all the money I need to live in an apartment on my own, have a new car, insurance, utilities, gas credit card bills..yada yada yada! God is soo good! I am more then blessed! In the last month alone i had a day off from the school and a friend asked me to go work for her so i was able to earn money on an already paid day off as well as getting a bonus from starbucks for christmas which never happens! I just can't even count the ways that I am blessed. God sure does now better then I ever will what I need and how to bless me!

Friday, November 19, 2010

The ways we deal with children

Have you ever wondered why we poke children in their belly or tickle them to death when we are happy for them or rub the tops of their head when we say hi. I know I don't like any of these things happening to me but yet I do it to them. The joys of working with autism is that these things come back around to bite you. I realized today after poking a child in the stomach for fun, when he did it back i did not enjoy it. Makes me wonder why it is socially acceptable for us to do it to them. hm...? BUT if a little boy (not so much girls) falls over and starts to cry, all you have to do is ask him if his limb or joint (ie..elbow, knee, leg, arm, whatever he hurt) is going to fall off or if it's still there while pretending to look for it. Suddenly he starts to laugh and the world is a better place because now it's fun. But if you do this to a little girl (learned that one the hard way) then they cry harder and genuinely think their joint or limb is missing or going to fall off!! haha...oh children. gotta love their ways.
So many thoughts running through my head in the last few days which are all too crazy to explain at the moment but hopefully the emotion will work out soon and i can verbalize it better.

Monday, November 15, 2010

The art of almost killing ones self (purly accidental of course)

In the last blog I was talking about the art of loosing ones mind. Now I have more arts that I am mastering to share with you! It seems as though self inflicted injury has been a talent of mine since I was very young. I tend to fall off things or drop things (garage doors and such) on myself on a regular bases (seems to run in the family at least as far as the cousins on my mother's side of the family are concerned). Yesterday however was the most interesting one of them all because I was alone in someone else's house. I was getting ready to throw a baby shower for my good friend or in other words "sister" (something you will learn about my family is that we adopt everyone...especially only children that need to be indoctrinated into silbinghood!) alone in the house of my aunt and uncle. Needless to say things went wrong..very wrong!! As the time was nearing for the shower and I was expecting help to arrive soon I was filling a water with a glass 20 (or so) oz cup. After using the cup and setting it in the sink I realized that it would be a better idea to just dry it and put it away (going back to the art of loosing ones mind i would probably forget where I had found the cup in the first place). Well...I picked up the glass and then immediately dropped it back into the sink. I was trying to catch it and ended up putting my arm right in to war zone where the glass shattered on my arm and sliced a huuuuge gash! Not only did it crash into the sink half of it went onto the floor where I was standing barefoot! I had to stop and think to myself "What does a person do in this situation? I am in someone else's house and I am surrounded by glass with a gash in my arm" I quickly grabbed a paper towel that was sitting there and then called my aunt to see if she would answer her cell phone but she was busy (which i figured would be the case). Anyways...after a lot of drama and me essentially freaking out after trying so hard not to she called me back and I found a band aid to place on the wound. It was rather comical and scary all at the same time. Some friends had to come rescue me because they were the only ones I could get a hold of right away. I had to think to myself again "These are good things to know since I live by myself and often times end up in situations like this. I am suprised in 7 months of living alone I have not further injured myself in my own self care." haha...anyways..all that to say some people are now convinced that I need a personal assistant to watch me at all times so I  don't have anymore "Accidental Suicide attempts" as it was so loving put! GO ME! WOOT!

Wednesday, November 10, 2010

That Art of loosing ones mind

I have no idea what I will be like at the age of 60 because at the age of 23 I am already loosing my mind! Today I was thinking all day "It's payday it's payday..don't forget to get your check cause it's payday" I also needed to turn in my time card. Well I gave that to someone else to turn in and then realized I forgot to total the hours up on it. So I had to go to the office and do that before leaving. I got to the office and did so then walked out to my car promptly forgetting my check. I realized as i was about the open the door to my car that I had forgotten. I open the car throw my purse in, grab my keys and my phone and walk all the way back to office. When I arrived at the office for the second time I told the secretary that I would have been horribly bummed if I had left for the four day weekend without my paycheck. So she handed me the check and had me sign for it. i set my phone and my keys down to sign. After signing I grabbed my keys and walked out. Walked all the way back to my car and then realized that I did not have my phone! This time I said "forget it" to the walking so I drove up to the office door and walked in again commenting to the secretary that i was definitely loosing my mind, grabbed my phone and walked out! Oh boy...if people only knew how many times a day I do things like this! I have to set reminders on my phone to go off at random times of the day if I need to remember anything even the slightest bit of importance! It is bad...realllllllll bad!

Monday, November 8, 2010

Lions and Tigers and JR highers, OH MY!!!!!!!!!

This weekend I had the adventure of going on my third annual JR high retreat with the kids from church. Oh Boy do they wear me out! It is always such an amazing adventure though! Working with preschoolers is always awesome when they want to sit on your lap and just love you but when you can gain the respect and appreciation from a Jr high student it is so much more monumental because that is when they are really coming into their own and you can have such an awesome impact on their life (all for the Glory of God with HIS strength of course!)! Anyways...i love working with them. They never cease to stress me out and amaze me with how much drama they can create with their seemingly simple lives but it is all good in the end. This weekend we taught them about Why we trust God's word and how to know it's true. Along with all kinds of fun activities and craziness I think a huge impact was made on each of their lives. Some high lights of the weekend were 1) the car ride on the way up was awesome because the kids in my car were all boys and one girl but they actually talked to me the entire ride instead of just each other and we had very fun conversations including Austin naming almost every movie known to man and being shocked I had seen maybe three of them he had listed haha. 2) While we were there we saw about three tarantulas (in the last 13 years the couple who sponsors the Jr high ministry have only ever seen maybe one) and one of them I forgot my sister is deathly TERRIFIED of Spiders so I called her over to look at it and after getting MAYBE 15 feet from it she ran away screaming a not so pleasant word and felt really bad later (hahaha..oops)! 3) During one of the meal times most of the girls were sitting at one table all together and one of them took a bagel off my sisters plate and ate it. I later came over and started to eat her cereal right about the time she noticed her bagel missing. She was so distraught that someone ate her bagel (all in good fun of course) that she didn't notice me eating her cereal even though she was looking right at me. She then looked over as her plate was being cleared and declared "MY CEREAL!" in which EVERY girl busted up laughing because they all noticed minutes before she did that I was eating it. hahaa....we love you SISSY!!!! 4) Then the ride home I had a very intense but awesome conversation with one of the fellow counselors (Mary). All in all it was a good and stretching weekend where God taught me a WHOLE new meaning to the word patience.
Daily attempting to be in HIS glory,

Tuesday, November 2, 2010

Questions and lessons

So yesterday I was walking through the hall at the elementary school I work at and low and behold there are kids probably about 4th grade with cell phones. Why in the WORLD would a 4TH GRADER need a cellular phone?!?!?! I mean are we for reals? Are children really spending that much time on their own now a days that the parents need to keep track of them through cell phones? When I was a kid i was either down the street or with my parents. So why would children need it other then they are roaming the streets by themselves and their parents allow this! It drives me crazy! anyways...
I also discovered I HATE technology for the fact that it is waaaay too easy to make mistakes. Like sending the wrong person a text message or thinking you are talking to one person but really it is another and since you can't hear their voice or see their face you would have no idea if it was actually them or not.
Also....I have been learning my whole life that my mouth will have the end of me but just yesterday that REALLY hit home! I want nothing other then For God to be in complete control of my actions and my mouth. I pray that this becomes the case and I stop being STUPID like I have been my whole life and running my mouth even when I KNOW what I am saying is wrong! I make myself very angry and I am making the buck stop here! NO MORE!
On a lighter note...I have been waiting for 2 years to get Hercules a Hot dog Costume for Halloween since He is part Dachshund. I went to Target yesterday and it was only 5 bucks!! woot!! So next year he will be a hotdog!! So cute!!! ;)

Monday, November 1, 2010

Broken and Contrite Heart

This is my prayer today.
Psalm 51
1 Have mercy upon me, O God,
         According to Your lovingkindness;
         According to the multitude of Your tender mercies,
         Blot out my transgressions.
 2 Wash me thoroughly from my iniquity,
         And cleanse me from my sin.
 3 For I acknowledge my transgressions,
         And my sin is always before me.
 4 Against You, You only, have I sinned,
         And done this evil in Your sight—
         That You may be found just when You speak,[a]
         And blameless when You judge.
 5 Behold, I was brought forth in iniquity,
         And in sin my mother conceived me.
 6 Behold, You desire truth in the inward parts,
         And in the hidden part You will make me to know wisdom.
 7 Purge me with hyssop, and I shall be clean;
         Wash me, and I shall be whiter than snow.
 8 Make me hear joy and gladness,
         That the bones You have broken may rejoice.
 9 Hide Your face from my sins,
         And blot out all my iniquities.
 10 Create in me a clean heart, O God,
         And renew a steadfast spirit within me.
 11 Do not cast me away from Your presence,
         And do not take Your Holy Spirit from me.
 12 Restore to me the joy of Your salvation,
         And uphold me by Your generous Spirit.
 13 Then I will teach transgressors Your ways,
         And sinners shall be converted to You.
 14 Deliver me from the guilt of bloodshed, O God,
         The God of my salvation,
         And my tongue shall sing aloud of Your righteousness.
 15 O Lord, open my lips,
         And my mouth shall show forth Your praise.
 16 For You do not desire sacrifice, or else I would give it;
         You do not delight in burnt offering.
 17 The sacrifices of God are a broken spirit,
         A broken and a contrite heart—
         These, O God, You will not despise.
 18 Do good in Your good pleasure to Zion;
         Build the walls of Jerusalem.
 19 Then You shall be pleased with the sacrifices of righteousness,
         With burnt offering and whole burnt offering;
         Then they shall offer bulls on Your altar.